30 Days of Gratitude: Day 16

Ok, so I’ve missed like 3 days.

Today, I am grateful for time.

It’s one of those things I always complain about never having enough of. “I just don’t have the time” or “I wish there were more than 24 hours in a day” are things you will hear me saying on a regular basis. Especially if there are assignments due.

The more I think about it though, if there were extra hours in a day, I’d probably just spend them in bed or procrastinating.

Anyway, it was a long week with many late nights, but I still managed to get what I needed to do done. And I only missed one class! I also managed to take some time to just chill for a bit…oh, and do the ice bucket challenge. In hindsight, I got a lot done this week. 

Today, I am grateful for time.


30 Days of Gratitude: Day 15

I keep missing days, sigh.

Today, I am grateful for children.

They say the best things. Thought I’d share some of them here so you can see why they are so special to me.

“This is so hard – I wish my mum was here!”

“I’m a man!” 
One of my Guides said this with absolutely no context AT ALL. Turns out she meant she’s playing a man in a puppet show they were doing.

*After showing my student my Batman ring.*
Him: “Does that make you Batgirl?”
Me: “I guess so.”
Him: “So then I’m Batman. But you can’t tell anyone. I’ll keep your secret if you keep mine. Do you have a Batmobile?
Me: “Nope.”
Him: “Well, I have a grapple hook.”
Sure…you do.

“Is that what money looked like in the olden days?”
– My 9 y.o. student looking at a cash register set I brought to class. The money was literally a black & white version of what money looks like now.

In clinic…
SP: What’s this? *shows picture of sheep*
Boy: Lamb.
SP: Not quite. What’s a big lamb called?

Me: I met Batman when I went to Queensland.
Boy: Was he the real one?

Today, I am grateful for children.

30 Days of Gratitude: Day 14

Today, I am grateful for focus.

I was so focused today that I managed to pretty much finish an assignment due Monday – yay! I’m so grateful that I was able to sit down and just do the assignment despite the multitude of distractions around me.

This means I can spend most of tonight re-watching Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. and pigging out on ice cream…oh, and doing laundry.

Today, I am grateful for focus.

A tale of two minds

I want to pause the gratitude for a second and write about something else. I am currently in a battle with myself. It’s a bit of a Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde situation.

I don’t want to go off the rails and harbour hatred or malice towards anyone. I don’t want to be a bitch. I don’t want bitterness in my heart, I want to handle life’s situations with poise, no matter how tough it might be. I want to take the high road. I want to move on and mean it when I say that I’ve forgiven someone. Even though people tell me I have the right to be angry, I don’t want to be angry. Just because I have the right to do something, doesn’t mean I should do it…right?

But at the same time, I want to go off the rails. There’s something in me that’s saying “screw it”. I’ve spent a lot of my life trying to be good, trying to act with gentleness and poise. I deserve a moment of craziness. I want to let all the bitterness out. There are many things I would like to say to certain people. And let’s face it – after everything I have been through this year, I have the right to be angry. I’ve been left to pick up the pieces and deal with so much poop. I deserve some form of happiness, don’t I? 

I have no idea what to do. Do I have to pick one or can I be a bit of both?

30 Days of Gratitude: Day 13

I missed a day…again! This is yesterday’s gratitude:

Today, I am grateful for good company.

I had the delightful privilege of having lunch with my Super Speechie Bestie. We got dumplings and sat out in the sunshine, and everything was brilliant.

I decided it was about time I made a Save the Date event on Facebook for my upcoming 21st. As I sat there typing the details in, my thoughts and anxieties began to spiral out of control. On the brink of an attack, I turned to my friend – “I can’t do this. No one’s gonna come.” She looked at me with a you’re-a-nutjob face. She basically said that I was being stupid and the all the important people would be there. The ones who don’t respond are irrelevant.

To my Super Speechie Bestie, I can’t thank you enough for keeping me grounded, and not letting my anxiety get the better of me. You saved me from bursting into tears in the middle of uni.

Today, I am grateful for good company.

30 Days of Gratitude: Day 12

Today, I am grateful for where I live.

During clinic this afternoon, my friends and I were having a conversation about current issues in the world. It’s a scary place right now, what with all the violence going on. One of my friends said something that really resonated with me. “We should all be grateful that we were born in and live in a peaceful place.” I cannot agree more. Not everyone has that privilege.

I’m thankful that I can walk the streets without fearing for my life. I’m thankful for the freedom I have to practise whatever religion I want. I am thankful that my family is safe. I am thankful for a roof over my head.

I am also thankful for that friend who reminded me of how lucky we all are.

Today, I am grateful for where I live.

30 Days of Gratitude: Day 11

Today, I am grateful for mochas.

I had two mochas in the space of 3 hours. It was one of those days. I didn’t get much sleep last night because of back pain, so I got to uni this morning completely exhausted. I needed a mocha to get me through my first lecture, and then needed another to get me through the next 4 hours of class. Ugh.

Now, I didn’t start with the coffee-drinking til a couple of months ago. And even then, it’s only a mocha. It’s not really coffee, right? I like to think that I’m not sucked in…yet. Check back with me next year, and maybe by that time I’ve upgraded to a cappuccino. Who knows?

Today, I am grateful for mochas.